Yikes. So my once a week blog... not so much. But I have been trying to keep up with moments. But these past few weeks I have not had to look very far for moments. Moments have been thrown at me. Maybe I shouldn't have tried to really make the most of moments at the end of a school year.
There has been lots of crazy at our house. Girls beach trip - child to the ER - end of school for all three kids. And that's just the big ones. And that's probably why I didn't make it to the computer to blog...
We kicked off the week with a late night trip to the ER. And really these are moments of blessings in a crazy and weird situation:
• Watching my two ride off with family friends, while me and middle little headed to the ER on a late Sunday night. And the pity that the Nurse Practitioner took on us in the wee hours of the morning because we had been there so long.
• Carrying my sweet heavy little one to the car after a long night
• Kindness of family and friends (and the billing department) about my wallet sitting on my bed - and NOT at the hospital with me...
• Blessings of wakefulness to drive home in the early early morning from the ER
• Kindness from a friend to bring joy to my sicky middle little when I was just too exhausted
And with that "fun" trip to the ER (an infection that passed) I was so tired that I missed moments. But I realized that I was missing them. Guess that counted. But I was Worn. Out. Daddy was out of town all week - so ER trip and following week was solo mommy time. Me vs 3 - on 3 hours of sleep... Not a good combination. But we made it through. Just barely!
But after that week, it got crazier with the end of school - first for the 2 littles, then for my oldest. Finishing Kindergarten. How is that possible?
• Realizing just how much of our oldest's past that I missed out on. And sitting in the floor crying for a while.
• Sitting in the floor playing cars with little little, even though I needed to pack for my trip
• The sweaty tired happy face of middle little at her jumpy house birthday party!
• Kisses from little little all morning of Mother's day!
• Running a 5K - a tough one - and so proud of my time that I didn't think that I would get close to! But the best was seeing my family along the route. Little hands. Little waves. Little voices cheering!
• Hugs from teachers and friends as we left the hallways for the last time.
• Lasts of Kindergarten. Last lunch. Last carpool. Last drop off. I was unexpectedly sad.
So my moments that I have had these past few weeks - they were huge. I didn't really have the time to see the little moments day to day - the ones that I'm searching for. Those big ones knocked the wind of out of me. But back to a calmer existence - I think. I hope. For a while at least. Getting into the summer groove. And I hope to make these days fun and memorable for all of us.
