Monday, May 25, 2015

Hit by moments...

Yikes.  So my once a week blog... not so much.  But I have been trying to keep up with moments.  But these past few weeks I have not had to look very far for moments.  Moments have been thrown at me.  Maybe I shouldn't have tried to really make the most of moments at the end of a school year.  

There has been lots of crazy at our house.  Girls beach trip - child to the ER - end of school for all three kids.  And that's just the big ones.  And that's probably why I didn't make it to the computer to blog...  

We kicked off the week with a late night trip to the ER.  And really these are moments of blessings in a crazy and weird situation:

• Watching my two ride off with family friends, while me and middle little headed to the ER on a late Sunday night.  And the pity that the Nurse Practitioner took on us in the wee hours of the morning because we had been there so long.
• Carrying my sweet heavy little one to the car after a long night
• Kindness of family and friends (and the billing department) about my wallet sitting on my bed - and NOT at the hospital with me...
• Blessings of wakefulness to drive home in the early early morning from the ER
• Kindness from a friend to bring joy to my sicky middle little when I was just too exhausted

And with that "fun" trip to the ER (an infection that passed) I was so tired that I missed moments.  But I realized that I was missing them.  Guess that counted.  But I was Worn. Out.   Daddy was out of town all week - so ER trip and following week was solo mommy time.  Me vs 3 - on 3 hours of sleep...  Not a good combination.  But we made it through.  Just barely!

But after that week, it got crazier with the end of school - first for the 2 littles, then for my oldest.  Finishing Kindergarten.  How is that possible?

• Realizing just how much of our oldest's past that I missed out on.  And sitting in the floor crying for a while.
• Sitting in the floor playing cars with little little, even though I needed to pack for my trip
• The sweaty tired happy face of middle little at her jumpy house birthday party!
• Kisses from little little all morning of Mother's day!
• Running a 5K - a tough one - and so proud of my time that I didn't think that I would get close to!  But the best was seeing my family along the route.  Little hands.  Little waves.  Little voices cheering!
• Hugs from teachers and friends as we left the hallways for the last time.
• Lasts of Kindergarten.  Last lunch.  Last carpool.  Last drop off.   I was unexpectedly sad.


So my moments that I have had these past few weeks - they were huge.  I didn't really have the time to see the little moments day to day - the ones that I'm searching for.  Those big ones knocked the wind of out of me.  But back to a calmer existence - I think.  I hope.  For a while at least.  Getting into the summer groove.  And I hope to make these days fun and memorable for all of us.